Daydream Believer

Reuters tells me that the "default setting" of the human brain is daydreaming. It turns out later that people "aren't really having fanciful thoughts" but are thinking in a non-focused way about things they have to do later, much of the time. So I personally think "daydreaming" may be a misnomer.

( Whining )

I started this journal at what may have been the happiest time of my life. Things started to go south fairly quickly, but a couple of months there were really good. I feel a certain nostalgia for that time, but I don't think I could repeat it. For one thing, I don't believe I could feel the same enthusiasm for academic work. This kind of nostalgia is, I think, why people say things like you're only young once. But I was something like thirty-two then, which is younger than some but not so young as others. It seems to me that, basically, anything I could do in my early thirties I could do in my late thirties.

I don't think it's impossible for me to be in a happy time of my life again, but it doesn't seem very likely to happen on its own, and I'm not sure what I can do to make it happen. It seems that, for now, I have to wait and hope. Hope is difficult.

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Well, I appear to have expired. Odd, I thought I had until the end of the day on Sunday. Oh well.